Monday, January 11, 2010

Change

There as been so many new things in the last few days. And many of them will be semi permanent. I'm still adjusting, as Dan may attest, I've been a bit on edge. Maybe a little more than that.
The flight was so difficult. I don't think I've ever enjoyed pulling an all-nighter, and on a plane for an 18 hour flight with 20 minute naps was not very easy for me. I would never do it with out Dan, I don't know how my mother-in-law flew with two small children by herself several times.
It is warm here, mostly pleasant, but the streets are dirty. So being outside has been kept to a minimum. I really need to learn more about the neighborhood around me so I can take the children to parks or indoor playrooms.
Being in a new place, with language, culture and food has given me a lot to thing about. I am so thankful that everyone here is willing to help. Strangers ask if they can help me into the elevator, or find the grocery store or get a high chair. And if they can't speak English they ask their neighbor to translate. Back home there are a lot of people who move to a new country, they leave familiar things, comfort, nice homes, careers and choose to come to the US where they will not have many if any of those things. And then the language is a huge problem. I don't remember being as patient, or willing to help someone who was in my position. I've heard many conversations that went something like this:
"They should learn English if they want to live here." This thought has really made me think that with such a big and difficult change for someone who might need a little help or encouragement I wish I had been a little more helpful or tolerant. I know I sound like a horrible person.

10 comments:

Unknown said...

Horrible is not a word I would ever use to describe you. Amazing is more like it. It sounds like you are in for many changes ahead. Remember you have many people thinking of you. We love you! Good luck!

Unknown said...

Wow! Good luck! Where are you at again?

Esther said...

You are an amazing lady -- definitely not horrible. I'd imagine you are being more gracious than you realize yourself. Keep your chin up and enjoy your adventure in Thailand!

Amanda said...

Good luck with everything!

Alyosha said...

Yeah, I really don't envy you. I didn't spend a whole lot of time in Bangkok, but I do have some idea of what you're dealing with. I've been writing some scenes in Cambodia for my book--maybe if I get this grant I'm applying for, I can afford to come!

AllisonK said...

I'm so glad you posted I've been thinking about you and hoping everything is well. I can't imagine what you are going through right now, but please know that we are thinking of you and praying for you.

Sarah said...

I hope things get better. Once the jet lag wears off everything will look better. We can't wait to visit.

Maria said...

Good luck, and remember to take each day one at a time.

Sharon said...

I actually can imagine some of what you are going through..... It is so HARD those first few weeks. Hard to imagine you could ever love the place, or even get used to it....
Hang in there. Be grateful for the little miracles. you'll find some everyday!

Scott and Collette said...

Ugh--glad the flight is behind you. I was basically covered in sweat and tears just flying without Scott from Chicago to Portland, so I'm definitely not cut out for what you guys did! Anyway, keep us updated!